I will get visit on Sunday and even in dreams I don`t know what should I make for lunch. Something that can be made in five minutes, but it would looked like I was cooking for 3 days. And one or two cleaners it would be also good to have. I really don`t know what to do; start to to think what should I cook, which is very difficult, because he don`t want to tell me what does he like or not, and when I look round apartment... well after atomic bomb wouldn`t be such a chaos like we have, so I say to myself that I must anyway tidy up first, which is more easily to say as to make. I even don't know how and where to start. I can't put things in the closets any more becouse they are totaly full already and if I start making order in closets I won`t be finish till end of the summer....and again, I still don`t know what to coock.

Freedom is the dream of every creature on this planet and everyone stare to total freedom, but it is unreachable, and some discovered that sooner and some later. In particular, for each step in the next degree of freedom will require strong will, becouse the price for this step become higher and higher. And no one can push you to this step, if you don't want to make it.