Last year was reportedly red, this year is such heart shaped and all pink.

Gods lives in us, and only matter of time is, when any of them will wake up, becouse he/she will felt, that her time is come and he can show all his glory.

And right now inside of me Venus was born.

Medusa was in Greek mythology, one of the three Gorgon sisters, a terrible monster with snakes instead of hair. Anyone who looked into her eyes, has been changed into stone.

I will get visit on Sunday and even in dreams I don`t know what should I make for lunch. Something that can be made in five minutes, but it would looked like I was cooking for 3 days. And one or two cleaners it would be also good to have. I really don`t know what to do; start to to think what should I cook, which is very difficult, because he don`t want to tell me what does he like or not, and when I look round apartment... well after atomic bomb wouldn`t be such a chaos like we have, so I say to myself that I must anyway tidy up first, which is more easily to say as to make. I even don't know how and where to start. I can't put things in the closets any more becouse they are totaly full already and if I start making order in closets I won`t be finish till end of the summer....and again, I still don`t know what to coock.

Freedom is the dream of every creature on this planet and everyone stare to total freedom, but it is unreachable, and some discovered that sooner and some later. In particular, for each step in the next degree of freedom will require strong will, becouse the price for this step become higher and higher. And no one can push you to this step, if you don't want to make it.

In my opinion it is scientifically proven that I have the most golden boy in the world. three days ago, for the modern eighth of March( I mean Mather day), children in the kindergarten planted flovers for mothers and every baby has had to write something about his/her mom, which become pretty funny stuff.

"I love my mommy. She doesn`t go to work, but work at home and likes to cook with me" so cute and he was embarrassed when I read what he said about me. And when he gave me his gifts we went ater Rosa, who also had a gift card for mom, just she did not want to give it away.... at least until card split into prime factors, during we were in the park.

But this is not essential.

In the evening when we finally arrived home, I become so lazy, not that I work and cook and cleaning all the time normaly, becouse that is not thrue... and I loudly said how nice it would be if we have someone to cook, wash, and in particular to clean my kitchen and my golden boy took footstool and go wash dishes. I have realy good life!

Sadness is condition of a individual within certain moment, that is not important for environment that still forward develops and blooms.

Is the situation: bad mood will fly out the window after a short procedure in a very simple way.Simply do not think about it and laughing at all kinds of nonsense and tell everyone that in fact you are in very good mood. This is scientifically proven ... on me, and I can confirm that it works. Problem is only in this, because I have a trunk full of the current interpretation of all over that I am a good mood.
I did not and spot it! I don`t know why I couldn`t afford this luxury to have nose till the ground and don`t have to try to keep up, that I babbling and argue with anyone who steps on my nose that is draging after me, not to answer if Idoesn`t seem worthy, That I am "singing" without any sece for music "Bolje biti pijan nego star ".... I must admit that this was the best. In fact, I even get me laugh when I remember dad how he came to see me and asked me if it is with me all right. Even called my mom all concerned that something was wrong with me that I probably got crazy ...I never listen to music, and I can`t afford to anyone to listem my fenomenal singing.

Our dog grew up and became independent. This looks like that: PCEK FUUUUJ!! Drop this!! Do you really must eat allthat!!!
And it was times, when is else all unhappy opened muzzle and he let goop on floor, in hope, that I will forget after half second, and he will come on account again. But times are changing, and our clever head also. If he is on rope and smells something deliciously disgusting, we pull rope. And who wins? Of course I! What can this little variety makes. But thing tiny changes, if he is free. I know, new laws dog must to be always tied... but that, who is this law written also wasn`t tied.. So, Pacek, disgusting dogs desserts, that he is found round parks and snow. This little bastard figured, that there is no force, to makes me move from path in snow. And he now rushes in a hurry to smell all corners and certainly finds at least what kind of crust of bread if not whole bone (here I could read newspaper), and will be searching till he found something, and his ears don't work absolutely within this time.

A mister goes on middle of grass, OK , snow, to stretch after, and he is gnawing his catch right slowly and with pleasure. This, that a mother is jumping off there on path, and shouting something and making other loud acrobatics...... I don't know her, nono, she isn't mine.... OK, at least till I ate, after that she will give me on rope again anyway .

Christmas Eve is coming and probably I should not sit infront the computer, but here things have turned a little bit different as I expect, and now I have a holiday till next year. Besides, there is no snow and outside is like in April. Although I must admit that after three days I am a little bored and I already miss all that screaming and speeding all around and after never tidy place, because of the children can not be.

Two weeks ago I decided that I will started with children's portraits. Given that I have two candidates at home, I see no problem. And becouse I didn`t drawi for a million years I decided to take advantage of our little monster, becouse she is smaller and it would be easier to draw her. HAHAHA! I'm just naive. How to tell liquid Mercury that should not be liquid? Impossible problem. But I'm stubborn and I was trying and trying and trying .... Only problem is, because our little princess is Aries too ... This will be a fire in the house ... but in the end I still won.

Little Princess will be cooker, when she grow and if you leave ther to work in the kitchen as she fits, becouse of that I had to have one eye very close, I can get her for a while almost stillness. Otherwise the price is such as to increase purchases of flour, sugar and everything else what to wreaking becomes sandpit, and spoons becomes small spades, but if she is so cute as possible when "cooked". And I'm drawing it and drawing and drawing, ... OK, little exaggerating. In the firsts experiments were such that I did not even have liked to see. But finally, I succeed and Brin liked so much that he said he will also draw and it has taken my unsecceed experiments that he will make them beautiful.

And this is my cooking girl now after thre days when I drew her also by pastels.

And I have to say that I am wery pleased with myself. Now I just have to make kilometers and kilometers, but then they will all want my portrets of their children;)

U Damn .... ups. Well, it took a while .... However, before much time has also passed a long time ... Who is guilty if I have the crisis ... creative crisis? Jaja what bullshit, just lazy as Fuks. In the summer I had Rosa for excuse; In September I will have a loooot of time for all sorts of things, then it was September, it was soooooo great while they were both children in kindergarten. It was such a peace, and the most foolish thing woud be, to break down those moments with anykind of work. Then again, there was no time because one or both was sick, well ..... like I said: One big box of excuses and laziness.

And so it came to December and the first dilemma; how it used to be simple! We had New year and thats it! But now is Nicholas and Santa Claus and New yer, and even Brin`s birthday. And if I only of this, if we wouldn`t seperate with my darlind, wewould have another two birthdays. Every thing is good for something. ...

OK ...Nicholas. Kids should have a bunch of uncles bearing gifts, only that there is no plastic for unique use.

And I said, they need footstool anyway, becouse those that we have at home, they pass around like a cat her youngones, kitchen and bathroom and kitchen again, then somewhere on the way to find the table and piano... And they are still a little bit tired, becouse they were given across me and my brother. And I walked down to the new ones ... and a horse (which is still in beauty treatment) and there is the type for one of the uncles. And so our little dragongirl got little fairy,

althought she is still more like a litle monster than a little fairy. And our little almost sixyearsold boy got friendly dragons.

So the new footstools replace the olds, and when boy who lives below us said to Brin what a nice footstool he got, even forgot that he would actually rather got bakugans ... prefer to get it anyway two days later at his party. But about that the next time.

Why in the world there are repairers? Who knows. Two weeks ago my washing machine died ... no, this is not quite true. Blame the workers who renovate the basement, although it is a mystery for me.. Why someone need a renewed cellar, for all junk and stack firewood or whatever he have in it. So, one of the workers goes through the pipe tap, followed by a weekly changing of the tube. And because our kingdom at the very top, we had a week of fireworks and explosions of water, every time someone opened the water.And in the midle of that came the weekend, cheap holster and time to washing our clothes, and who would have thought that is probably not the most intelligent decision lighting the washing machine becouse of that water mischiefs?

Well, I am not. The result was; because of something, water didn`t come in the washing machine, but I had already on Saturday full bathroomof dirty laundry ... you can not imagine how is two weeks later. Although I was still somehow optimistic at that time, and I got hand wash. However, after the first round, I gave up. Well, after the first week, when the tube finally changed, I can call the service if somebody can come fixed that white box that should wash laundry. Which is not to easy, becouse these gentlemen have "so much work" to take care that it taked another week whene he supposed to come.

But what kind of service come in the time? At the end I spent day on the phone calling from one authorized service to another and come to the conclusion, What the hell anybody need AUTHORIZED SERVICE, if can not get help from them!!!!! I finally got a repairer, but he had no intention, because of such "small" problem came to visit, because: "I can clean filters by meself!" Fool me, that I did not previously remembered that, haloooo!

So if your machine getting error E10 and I guess for other numbers in the same, dont loose time with service, because you can do by yourself!

Well, my english is not perfect... it is horrible, and the most things are not written like I wanted to be, but who knows. In ten years maybe I will write, what I will want.

Children in kindergarten ... jupi jupi jaja ....I was hardly wait for this, and tomorrow is Monday. Yeah well, sometimes even to myself find me a terrible, but what if it is so great to have few hours on the day break from all those "Mom Mom". And in the morning I can finaly clean the place and bomb slammed again, not just after 1o minutes, but only about 4 o`clock, and so I have entire 6-hour withouth of odes dog destroyed toys and scrapedi, well ... read by Rose newspapers and advertisements.

And it would be everything ideal would now be drawing my little girlmonster and my boy ... how do they jump in there hair. But because it is not always as a man wants, I have to change my party for golf clubs.

But in essence it is not so bad, only round ninetieth bars drawn I seeing them also in a dream.

Once, we get home, Brin decided that it is high time that draw him. The problem was only in the fact that I am not drawing more than ten years. But what little prince wish, that he get ... no, not quite so, only sounds good, and ultimately, why not start drawing again, and if my kids are looking forward to this ... three cheers.

And to get at least 15 minutes alone to sit around, we decided that we will draw each other. I have to say that I'm surprised by myself, even it seems to me that he look a bit like him.

And he drew a great mom

The most cute he was, when he said that we should draw only high-fives, and than he will finished. I do not know from where he got that. Looks like I'll have to buy some. Already with make-up I found that he is very pleased when I make myself up ... High heels and lipstick, almost he will decided that I have to start wearing miniscirts!

Waw, time goes fast :)

Yesterday. Stupid day. In the morning walk with Pacek, Rosa an I found little baby sparrow. I knew I should leave him there, but that wouldn`t be me, and he was so alone, so he went home with us. I was feeding him every hour...half hour, all day and I foamed alone above myself, that I incurred this, because he will croaked anyway, because I don't know how to take care of bird babies and I will too little or too much fed him.... I was sorry for me mainly alone, because I always bring on what kind of problem.

And in the evening he flew away. I was sitting on balcony an feeding him and sudenly some bird singed outside and in the next second he was in the air and flew away.

Beautiful, beautiful Monday.
It started already early in the morning, when I waked up and saw sun outside. It was second day of sun and It looksalmost incredible. And that I wouldn't happen to occur, that we will somehow missed it, I dressed up quick, put on Rosa, took Pacek and we went in Park. Which didn't prove as the most smart thing, because little princess was, when came to Tivoli already so tired, that we made only one small circle and went to shortest way home. She was really tired, slept from 9 am to 12 am and when she waked was outside of still sun, which just filled me with full of energy.

Thats means which; put Rosa to rucksack, Pacek... it is hollydays time, let's try without rope... which took anyway alone for so long, that we came through the door and he attacked one little girl... well, he otherwise greeted her, only she didn't understand this so, Pacek when sees children starts to all charmed to jump off around them, he obeys approximately so, as if I would want to prepare traffic sign that he sits down.

After long long time we went on Rožnik hill. We actually went last time, when Rosa was still so small, that I was carrying her in sack, this is so because, I don't like walking normally in hill, unless I go across and I imagine that I walk round jungle, I hunt feather snakes and search not know what kind of hid sanctuary.

What can I do, I like climbing round hill up, I like sliding round hill down, like if I am sweaty, muddy, dusty and biteing from mosquitos... well, this is not true, it only hear good.
I know definitely, that I don't like strolling with stroller round official ways, boredom works outsomehow. Than is more amusingly to go to Old city to look of storefronts, are to choose of thing, that I will buy myself, when I will have money.